Alex 
Nobody talks about the slow part. Everyone talks about the beginning. The chemistry. The way he looked at you that first night like he had been waiting to meet you. Everyone talks about the end too. The breakup. The crying in the car. The playlist you could not listen to for six months. But nobody … Read more
You have done the work. You journaled. You went to therapy or at least thought seriously about going. You talked it through with your best friend approximately forty seven times. You deleted his number. You added it back. You deleted it again. And then somehow a few months later you are sitting across from someone … Read more
You have explained him to your friends so many times that you have gotten good at it. You know exactly which details to lead with. The ones that make him sound like a good person who is just going through something. You know which parts to leave out not because you are hiding them, but … Read more
Nobody prepares you for this specific kind of hurt. Not your friends. Not the internet. Not the self help books that talk about breakups like they always happen in official relationships with clear beginnings and proper endings. Nobody sits you down and says hey if you fall for someone who never commits to you it … Read more
You already know something is off. Maybe you’ve been talking to him for three months and still don’t know what to call it. Maybe you’ve been spending every weekend together and he still hasn’t brought up being exclusive. Maybe you’re lying in bed right now wondering why someone who clearly likes you won’t just commit. … Read more
There’s a specific kind of pain that comes with a situationship ending and it doesn’t have a name yet which is part of why it hurts so much. You can’t call it a breakup because you weren’t together. You can’t explain it to your friends without hearing “but you weren’t even officially dating” which somehow … Read more
Someone probably told you to try no contact because it would make him come running back. Maybe you read about it at midnight while checking if he’d viewed your story. Maybe a friend said just go silent for thirty days and watch what happens. Maybe you found a reddit thread where someone swore it worked … Read more
There is a version of you that comes out when nobody is looking. She sings louder in the car. She wears the outfit she’d never wear to brunch. She dances around her room without wondering if she looks ridiculous. Maybe she stays up until 2 a.m. thinking about the life she actually wants and says … Read more
You know that phase when one guy likes your story and suddenly you are mentally planning your first vacation together? I am not judging. I have absolutely been there. Maybe he replied to your story with a heart. Maybe he remembered something you told him two weeks ago. Maybe he looked at you for three … Read more
I was always the funny one. The one cracking jokes. The one with the perfect comeback. The one people looked at and thought yeah, she’s got it all figured out. But here’s what nobody saw. I was falling apart. Quietly. Completely. And so, so alone. The Night Gets Louder When You’re Hurting There’s something about … Read more